with my head held low........

Yesterday was a bad day, and today as I try to recover, its really hard to find the strenth to fight. Business is business and charity or compassion for animals is never top priority, and for that I find myself losing RePets.

For almost 3 months I have been jerked around by land lords while tying to get this Thrift store open. Precious time that has cost us money we didn't make, and now lives that I cant save. I needed that store to open, I need that income, because my pockets are empty. Everything that happens, every need that is in that rescue is all on my shoulders and my purse to pay for it. We do get a few donations, but the donations only equal about 2-3% of what it takes to run RePets. The reality is no matter how grateful I am for every penny, even the ones I pick up off the ground, pocket change doesn't pay the bills. I feel so guilty asking for money because I know that takes money from the shelter. So I came up with the idea for the Thrift store, and It seemed to be going so well, however I had 2!!! land lords jerking me around for almost 3 months and now the well is dry.... I cant do this any more, I have no money to continue, I am sick about this and I don't know what to do.

I feel my self slipping into a dark place, because after all I have been thru in my 38 years of life, this is something that made me happy and made me feel like I was somebody, and it didn't matter to me how much it cost. However now that the cost is my family, I can no longer continue because the money is gone. I am not sure how many people will understand this. I am so sorry I let every one down, and I will cry every night for the animals that will suffer because I failed.

I honestly have done everything I can think of to fix this, but the reality is money is tight for everyone right now, and it just cost so much to rescue. I have even sent emails to famous people trying to get help. I have been given so many wonderful ideas from people and I thank you so much for your suggestions, but they are only small amounts of money that take a lot of time to make a small amount of money or cost money to do the fundraiser and there is no guarantee that it will work. I tried selling pet supplies, but you just cant compete with walmart, I tried the thrift store but I cant find a place big enough in our price range, with a land lord that true to his word. I know I have done my best whether its right or wrong for the animals, and I am proud that we have saved a little over 1600 animals in less then 2 years and I am sad for the ones that will suffer from now on.

With my head held low I am still going to look for a place to open the Thrift store. I have in the back of my head what would Job do, on my knees I ask God, what is your will.... I strongly feel that the gifts, talents, and passion for animals that I was given by God himself,is what I am supposed to do. Maybe hes testing me, maybe I am not doing it exactly the way he would like.... I don't know, I am just trying my best to make this happen, an its not looking good.

Due to lack of funding..... We have to put rescuing on hold till money starts coming in again. I am so sorry, and I hope this changes soon... Because .... I just cant close my eyes with out seeing the suffering.

tracy